I Ride The Dark Horse: October 2017

Saturday, October 28, 2017

I AM IMPORTANT ..

Do you know someone that uses "the victim personality". I am dealing with such a person. It has been a long road but there is one thing that I have learned through this whole mess and it is that I AM IMPORTANT, yesterday, today, and tomorrow! I am standing up for myself and I no longer care what the emails, opinions, posts, letters, and snarky attitude of my pest befalls me. I am defended, loved, cared about, and karma will take care of the rest.

There is a crippling dependency on a small army of friends and co-workers that my pest needs for support and sympathy. Such a person cannot act alone. One-sided stories, exaggeration and lying are common place for one that has fallen under the spell of the victim personality. This type of personality instinctively draws out the caring, nurturing, and protective qualities in a person, only to set them up for manipulation and abuse. What has become a blessing about this situation is that my pest has come to make me feel important and valuable. I now understand that this person is incapable of taking care of own personal needs and therefore, attempts to destroy my civil rights and boundaries. There is a sense of "squealing" from the pest as they are receiving the same medicine dished out; hence, the victim personality. This has become interesting and monumental in my belief that my pest is nothing more than a domestic terrorist.

Oh, this part of my writing will once again be printed and presented to the legal system as some sort of threat. A second book has been published by Amazon describing the years of abuse from a pest. Again, I hope it will offer hope and comfort to those that are being tormented as well. Just remember, only you can make yourself seem unimportant and of no value. Others that attempt to do such random acts of torment because they are unable to take responsibility for their own happiness or misery. My pest has to go to the extremes to get "revenge" for perceived abuse even though the pest is the one destroying my property and falsely accusing me of being irresponsible. The intention is to provoke an aggressive behavior from me which will not happen. The nagging, complaining, harassment, and beseeching to others how horrid I am is no longer. Bullies are bullies because they have learned from bullies. It is all they know how to do. Unfortunate.

Taking the higher road because I ride the dark horse ..

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Friday, October 13, 2017

Pretentiousness ..

As my husband and I visited our attorney's office to sign paperwork, an asset list became a topic. The word "pretentious" came to mind. Of course, the dictionary defines pretentious as "attempting to impress by affecting greater importance, talent, culture, etc., than is actually possessed". Interesting!

Some people while interacting with others project false, overwhelming, and exaggerating behavioral pattern of excessive emotional attachment and attempt to get attention in strange and unusual ways. They can be overly touchy and minor situations can cause wild swings in their emotions. They can pose such behavior during times of extreme stress when presented with having to be responsible or accountable for negative behavior. In reading an article about persons who exaggerate, the following became apparent; "exaggerated, shallow emotions,anger, boredom, hysteria, sadness, jealousy, disappointment, fear, boredom, overly dramatic, reactive and intensely expressed behavior, strident and superficial emotionality, emotional storms, constant attention-seeking, sexually seductive behavior, emotional behavior, ruthless willfulness, emotional manipulation, demands for constant attention, suicide gestures and threats." This is quite a list.

I have to giggle a bit as I am the one being accused of exaggeration and I am sure, focused fits of rage. When one can't care for themselves, they will focus their anger on those who can. And when attempt is made to destroy others, it will only show the insecurities and lack of ability of the pretentious person exhibiting the negative behavior.

Today, life was validated once again. How grateful I am to those who have stood by, believed, and defended. Rejoicing in the closure and the wonderful new adventures that have been coming our way! No exaggeration because ..

I ride the dark horse ..

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Subtle Characteristics ..

Today was a day of marvelous revelations. My wonderful husband and I sat in a small breakfast diner and read a passage that was more than bizarre. It was written as though there was a struggle happening within the spirit. So the question came to be; have you ever had someone involved in your life that seemed to live in a fantasy world where everything said or written felt false and exaggerated? What possesses a person to be so filled with rage and confusion that they portray themselves as scattered and aggressive? Of course, these passages secure my position once again that someone is consumed with my life and cannot handle that I could be moving on from such rage and obvious emotional imbalance. Maybe even close to not being a part of reality or incapable of being so.

Having an abusive attitude wrecks havoc to not only one's own life but to those they are involved with. Are there certain personality traits that may be occurring to cause such animosity? One does have to pity such an affliction. I know that I will be studied, stalked, and more writings will attempt to discredit what is believed to be incorrect. There will be manipulation and a distraction from the truth. I know that I need to proceed with caution and not be distracted from the job at hand. It will be the same today and tomorrow and the day after because that is all that can be done. Low self-esteem, tempermentalness, anger, deceptiveness, impulsivity, jealousy, and abuse are in the repertoire to the entrance to the day. Do the lies that are posted bother me any more? No. Do the tauntings and ridicule ruin my day! Absolutely not! In fact, they give me even better reasons to work hard and do better than I did the day before because ..

I ride the dark horse ..